Archive for June, 2008

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Thoughts of Ireland

June 29, 2008

I’ve been thinking a lot about Ireland lately. Its been 2 years since my last visit and I must admit I miss the land of my ancestor’s and am going to have to start planning a sojourn back to the emerald island for Fall 08. There’s a writers workshop I would like to attend in Dingle and would love to travel up to Donegal one of the few cities I have not been to in Ireland. I know I’m very blessed to have such a good teaching job here on the coast of North Carolina however I feel as though it getting to be time for me to begin planning for the next chapter of my life. I have lived in Morehead City for 22 years and have worked as a teacher and administrator for the Community Colleges for over 25 years – since 1979.

Yes…I am so ready to do something else with my life. Thanks to the internet I can continue teaching online no matter where my travels take me so that’s not an issue – I just have to decide where i want to be in a year. I have thought about getting a loft in Wilmington NC and renting my house out in Morehead City – I have also considered leasing a house or country home somewhere in Southwestern Ireland and dive into my writing and photography – maybe even pick the painting again. Just like the Nike ad says…it’s just a matter of doing it. I know I can do anything I want if I just plan it out and put my mind into making it happen. There is no doubt that I have to leave this area in the next year or two. As beautiful as this areas is it’s sucking the life out of this city boy and I need to be in a new environment. There is something magical about Ireland.

Every time I go Ireland I feel as though I’ve arrived home. It’s almost as if I remember living there in another lifetime – its a feeling I don’t have about any other place and in fact, I feel more at home in Ireland than I do on Long Island  where I grew up. I must go back at least part of the time…its just a matter of figuring out how to make it happen.  If you can dream it you can do it!

Click Here for my Ireland Travel Journal 2002

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Feeling Nostalgic…

June 24, 2008

I’ve been working on a (photo / memory) book for my Mom’s upcoming birthday. I did one for my daughter Andei’s 16th Birthday (Click here to download pdf excerpt) andeibookpdf3 earlier this month and she absolutely loved it. Blurb.com is an amazing online publishing service that allows a writer to design and publish a very professional book without having to purchase hundreds of copies. I am hoping to get more material for Mom’s book from her friends and relatives – I sent out an e-mail requesting family and friends to send me any anecdotes, stories or memories about my Mom to include in the book. I have lots of photos from the past, but hope to get more before this project is through.

Working on these books really is nostalgic for me. Why does it seem that the past was so much better than the present. At least it seems that way for me? I think about my childhood days on Long Island a great deal, and have done a lot of writing about those special, almost magical times. I suppose it’s because they were simpler, less complex times. Things were slower and more innocent (it seemed) back in the 50’s and 60’s. We weren’t constantly bombarded by the constant noise of mass media and didn’t have to constantly keep abreast of technology. I must admit sometimes I long for those simpler times especially as I get older.

The following is a story I wrote while in Ireland about growing up on Long Island. Enjoy!

Einstein Place was a strange name for a street. The green and white sign proclaimed it boldly atop the silver metal pole on the corner of our big green yard. Einstein Place holds a decade of disparate childhood memories that pass through my mind like a flickering black and white newsreel.

We moved to the suburbs of New York City in the fall of 1959. Back then Smithtown, Long Island was nothing but potato farms and dirt roads dotted with newly constructed ranch and barn styled colonial homes. A very different world from the city we were leaving behind.

My parents wanted to escape from the congested city and raise their growing family in a more pleasant, less hectic environment. There were many young families with the same idea moving into Smithtown as the sixties unfolded. Einstein Place represents a snapshot of that era; confident, hopeful young couples escaping the crowded city in search of a slice of the American Dream.

Young Baby Boomer’s blossomed and grew in this fertile soil. Children filled the newly paved streets playing every game imaginable. Stick ball, curb ball, tag, red rover, giant step, and hide-and-seek were just a few.

The sounds of children playing on our suburban street are as vivid as the images that fill my head.

“Red rover red rover let green come over – I got it…I got it…I GOT IT! – Tag…You’re it! Ready or not… here I come.”

It didn’t take long to develop life long friendships in our new neighborhood – playing army with freckle faced Mike Smith and that tough dark Italian kid Johnny Bosco. We belly crawled in the dense woods behind Colonial Oaks yelling,. “Bang! Got you – You’re dead!” Fishing on hot summer afternoons for catfish “catties” at Millers Pond, and going to school hands gripping my Lone Ranger School Bag and lunch box with the neighborhood kids on the big yellow bus that picked us up at the corner of Einstein and Brook Lane.

Flickering home movies play on in my head.

Two ten-year-old boys wearing baseball caps and Davie Crocket tee shirts are building a tree fort in the woods. One is using a hand-sized rock to nail a board across a precarious limb. There is a fight at the bus stop…young boys clench fists, argue and throw punches for no apparent reason. Friends one day – enemies the next.

Uniformed boys wearing bright yellow hats play a little league game at Maple Avenue Park at dusk. People cheer wildly from metal bleachers as I hit a line drive into center field.

Next I’m delivering newspapers in the rain, tossing them onto manicured lawns from a canvas bag slung across the high handle bars of my green sting ray bike.

Memories continue to roll through my mind like grainy 8mm movies. A touch football game is playing in our big corner backyard. I see screaming kids with hands waving and yelling, “I’m open! Pass it to me!” as they go out for the long bomb.

There are bits and pieces of Saturday Movie Matinee’s …Flash Gordon’s flying across the movie screen while noisy children munch popcorn and sip cherry cokes in their sticky vinyl seats. John Wayne is chasing the bad guys through a old western town with six guns blazing, Frankenstein moans with arms outstretched putting fear in us all while some kid shoots tiny gum balls through a straw at the big white screen.

Memories melt together into one vague mental collage…a giant tapestry of pure visual nostalgia.

My brother Dennis sits in his flannel pajamas playing with matchbox cars while Mary Ann, Terry and I sit mesmerized in front of the TV set. It’s Saturday morning cartoons. First farm shows, then Crusader Rabbit, and Raglan T Tiger, Rocky and Bullwinkle, Courageous Cat and Minute Mouse drive out of their cave, Fury, My Friend Flicker, Little Rascals, Jungle Jim, Circus Boy, then Andy Devine reads the story of Sabu the Indian Boy from a big book and looks up at the audience and says “Pluck your magic twanger Froggie!”

Mom calls us for breakfast – cereal variety packs, “oh boy…I want Sugar Pops – No – you had them last week.” “No fighting over the cereal – grab one and eat – don’t spill the milk.” I ‘m cutting the perforations down the middle of the box and pouring milk in without using a bowl.

My friends and I play endless games of Eight Ball on the honeycomb pool table in our converted paneled basement. We line up our shots across deep orange felt as balls drop loudly into the pockets. “Rack em up! Loser Racks!.”

Beatles music blares loudly on scratchy transistor radio “I wanna to hold your hand!” Our neighbor Mr. Bosco is weathering a hurricane wearing a yellow raincoat while sitting in a lounge chair on the roof of his house. Snow sleds carry laughing children bundled in winter clothes tied to the back of Dad’s Studabaker station- wagon as he drives and swerves slowly through the snowy suburban streets. Johnny’s hunting water rats with his new pump pellet gun behind Miller’s pond while I search for bullfrogs and box turtles. Giggling little girls play hopscotch and jump rope in our driveway, and Mike Smith’s getting up a stick ball game. “I’m captain! No, I’m captain! The odd finger is it -The odd finger is it. You pick first Mike.”

Now I’m walking down Einstein Place at the crack of dawn. My fishing buddy Don Nelson and I made the two-mile hike most Saturday mornings in the spring and summer. I hear the sound of frogs croaking in the distance and song of a bobwhite as we turn onto Brook Lane. Fishing poles and tackle boxes in hand, we walk lazily down the tree lined street towards the dense foliage of Wells Pond; Don with those silly hip waders waddling down the street like a circus performer. I just roll my blue jeans up to my knees and fish barefoot letting the cool wet mud squish between my toes.

Passing the last house on the paved street we enter the well-trodden dirt path that meanders through the woods to the point, our favorite fishing spot on the lake. Bass, yellow perch, sunfish and big silver shiners are jumping – leaving tiny ripples in their wake.. The large pond and surrounding woods are deserted except for the two of us. A mist hangs over the still water and the only sounds come from our feet shuffling down the dirt path. Lilly pads create a yellow – green mosaic around the shoreline. The best fishing is right on the edge between the water and the pads. We are careful not to get our lines tangled in the weeds.

There were family trips to Coney Island, Steeplechase, Freedom Park and Fairy Land. Einstein Place was more than a street…it was our childhood and it ended with a blink of an eye.

Einstein Place is quiet and deserted – everyone is gone. The film spins around and around on the reel – projector light in my mind goes out.

The Vietnam War raged on, protesters took to the streets and men landed on the moon. We didn’t even notice, protected and sheltered from the outside world on Einstein Place – at least for a brief sliver of time.

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Down Time…

June 10, 2008

I had a very enjoyable and relaxing weekend with some friends who live outside of New Bern NC right on the Nuese River. I was ready for some down time after a busy week of working and teaching classes. I had an opportunity to actually drive a small motor boat – something that I must admit I have never done by myself before. We did some serious fishing for Puppy Drum Saturday afternoon (man it was hot!) and I actually caught a good sized fish – what a rush! Driving the boat down the river full throttle and then reeling in a relatively good sized fish was a serious adrenalin rush for this city boy. It was even more of a rush driving the boat back in the dark with nothing more than a flashlight to follow the boat ahead of me.

Even though I truly enjoyed the fishing, boating, swimming and YES…some very cold beers on Saturday, it was my lone sojourn the following morning in a Kayak that I savored even more. It was so quite and peaceful on Sunday morning as I meandered through the narrow channels of the Nuese river and then out into the sound. I had my camera with me and I just paddled lazily along the river stopping to compose potential subject matter for my photographs. I love photography and any opportunity to make some pictures rejuvenates my creative spirit. It’s good to rest our bodies and enjoy quality “fun” down time, however I get even more out of any opportunity to tap into that creative place inside and explore the artist within me – whether it be photographically or with my writing.

The following are a few photographs from the weekend. Enjoy!

Sunset on the River with Fishing Net

Meandering Through the Tree Lined Channel

Lilly Pads and Moss Covered Tree

Old Weathered Cedar Tree

Dead Trees

Hanging Moss

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Early Morning Thoughts

June 3, 2008

It’s exactly 6:00 am and I have been up for about 15 minutes. I went downstairs and plugged in the coffee maker and am now watching the sunrise through the trees of my backyard. The only sounds come from a few cars driving down highway 70 in the distance, my whirling ceiling fan and the chirping of birds in the yard. I love this time of day. I feel a quite, anxiety free calm before the demands of the day kick in. Early mornings are kind of like a prayer accompanied by the songs of the many species of birds that inhabit this street.

I had trouble sleeping last night. That’s nothing new. I have difficulty sleeping most nights and have for many years. I’m used to it now and if I get 3 hours in a row before waking up it’s a good night. There’s so much going on in the world, my country and in my own little personal life it’s very difficult for me to empty my mind and not think about the various issues and concerns that swirl around me – whether they be school/work related – the constant bombardment from the media and/or those personal issues that we all struggle with day in and day out like affairs of the heart, health, money and family.

My parents celebrated their 57th wedding anniversary yesterday. How cool is that? I can’t fathom being married to someone for over 50 years, but then again I didn’t make it ten in my last marriage. The “great generation” were all about sticking it out no matter what. I think they are great role models for us all, as far as not quitting things when the going gets tough.

Anyway…I had my yearly appraisal “evaluation” at work yesterday and that went extremely well. I suppose I couldn’t ask for a more glowing and positive appraisal of my work as the Distance Learning Director at Carteret Community College. When it comes to working and career in general I’ve always been on my game. My parents taught me a strong work ethic and it’s served me well. Looking back I wish things could have been different when it came to my marriage, but that was a long time ago and things happen for a reason so I am not going to dwell on the various reasons I find myself at 55 sitting in an empty bedroom at 6:22am looking out at the glowing rising sun. I really can’t complain. My children are all doing well and I look forward to seeing my daughter Andei in August. To think she is turning 16 next week is also hard for me to fathom. I blinked and 35 years have zoomed by. I’ve lived in North Carolina longer than my years growing up in New York. To think I’ve worked at the same college for over 22 years blows my mind. Time. It goes by faster the older we get. When I was a child I always thought it went by slowly and now that I’m middle aged + it screams by like watching the landscape from the window of a cross country, Amtrack train. I am glad I have documented so much of it in my daily journals and photographs over the years.

My Step-son Cody is staying with me this summer while he recuperates from shoulder surgery and attends summer school at my college. It’s nice to have some company. This big house can get lonely sometimes. He is an excellent cook and is teaching me a few things in the kitchen – I need all the help I can get when it comes to cooking. I have some papers to grade and the coffee is ready. Another day awaits – another gift from God. The present moment is all we have and my day started off with a beautiful sunrise, the chirping of birds and good thoughts about my family and an awareness that life is GOOD and what we make it.

Adam Skateboarding – Photo by Ross #3 Son